My thoughts…..

I normally do this is December, when the new year is around the corner. But this time I decided that I should do it now… I found my 2008 daily diary… the one that I wrote what needs to be done on daily basics…A few thing that I realize I do.. Plan what I have to do when it is already last minute.. I write people’s birthdays.. Have last minute changes cause I don’t start my work fast… Typical of me… As for year 2008.. I realize that it was a very tough year for me… It started off with my last semester in UM.. The last few months of my 6 years – long course. It was coming to an end. It all happened so fast. I barely realized what was going on… with mix feeling.. sad to leave friends.. happy that I am going to work soon… afraid where I am going to be posted… weird period of life… In middle of it (February) was Mahes’ brother’s wedding… a great time but had to end in a bad memory.. something that would be hard to forget… but moving out…. Then my last few weeks of my course were terrible...

coming to sabah has made me realise that respecting each others differences is a simple issue.. here they dont really look at what race they are...but i am not saying that it doesnt exist. it does but subtle.. as for me... it thought me to see my surrounding differently. but old habits die hard. i am prejudicial i cant help it.. as far as i recall i hv not been subject to harsh racial discrimination but i do have my fair share of experience... but i guess i was thought to learn to live with it.. to just accept it n move on.. but here it is different. here u will be able to see different races and even religions in a family... it is very complicating... like a web... but i realize that they see each other for who they are. each member gives n takes. they are able to understand each other without much trouble.... but reflecting on myself... i just cant seem to run away from it... it would be a general stattement to say that those from peninsular are more racist... but i think it is true....