My thoughts…..

yes.... i am in a relationship.....dont laugh lah... before i write more... just to say... if u r reading this well this has to stay here only.... cause writing is like a therapy for me...it helps me to get over issues in my life... so lets this all stay here... it all started 4 weeks ago... n i feel like it has been for for years... i went through a lot... from a gal to a woman then to this lady who sees herself married.... by the way it's not an easy process... so much has been said....too many feelings were shared...it all seem to be true...unseen future were dreamt off then all of sudden something happen.... and it seems that out was the only way... damn it was hard.... everything seems fake.... i just couldnt get the idea that it might all be fake.... feelings shared..fake.... words said fake....future ruin it was somethings that i couldnt comprehend... could it have been fake...? well i will never know... cause now it seems better.. things r back to normal... ...

something i found online... forgot to link... sorry A good nugget of wisdom to remember is that you shouldn't marry the person you know you can live with for the rest of your life; marry the one whom you can't imagine yourself living Realize that you are not going to live in harmony every second of every day you are married.You are not perfect, and neither is your partner, married or not. If you're waiting to be with someone with whom every day is rainbows and sunshine, you'll never settle down or get married because no one will ever be able to live up to that illusion. Marriage is hard work and it takes your whole life to complete it. Too many people get married with the expectation that if things start to get tough, they'll just file for divorce and start all over again. Be prepared for the bumps in the road, and don't be surprised when you come across them.

sigh..... sigh... i guess how many sigh i take...it wont go away... i am afraid.... i am afraid of this new phase of life that i am going to take ... i never imagine that i will go through this phase... well i am lying... yes i hv imagine... but i guess i just felt that it will never happen... and now it is happening... i am excited cause its fun, nice,, new, it just feels right... but then i starting thiking too much and i hv doubts about it... is it true... is it right... aint i moving through the phase too fast?  is there something i should worry about,,,? or will i be prepared to go through the phase,,,,? i doubt myslef... i dont want to ruin it,.... cause so many people are looking forward to it... even i am looking forward but i am afraid..... that history repeats itself.... cause i hv enough of being sad for myself.... i dont want to be the cause of any more sorrows.....sigh sigh sigh... p/s some may know what nonsense i am taking about.... so shhhhhh... ...