My thoughts…..

it all the things that is going in my life i just needed 1 more thing to spice it up.... a calf hit my car.... why why.. i did break but the van from the opposite side had already hit the calf... so it like "flew" n hit my car.. all i could wish was that the calf was not death under my car.... i was so afarid to open my door.. just in case i could see its head or legs under my car... when i did i didnt see anything... i asked the uncle in the van.."sudah dia lari" "already ran" then i thought my car.. was it hit..? can it move? slowly i started the car... it moved... then i thought is there any dent.... shit shit.... it was not my fault.. why my car has to suffer... when i got down to check... yes yes it was dent... my car poor baby.... why why.... with all that is happening in my life... now this how worse can it get...? 2 things happen n both were not my fault. why why.. hmmmm i am tired... i did ask once why like can just be flat... i h...

its just march and i am already doing a review of the year hehehehe... so much has happen... i just cant imagine... the year started off great... i fell in love.... so funny lah so funny lah.... now its just seems weird.... i wish i didnt... cause the pain is just too much.... i am lost... i dont know myself anymore.... its so hard to pull myself together cause every time i do..i just go back to 0 or maybe negative ...hheeheheh i wish there was a switch that can just off my feelings... i just want to be like always am.... now i am nobody... i dont even have my family anymore... is it worth that person.... i dont know... the thought of losing that person.. makes me weak... but i just know that person for 2 months.... why why cant i just get over it.... its not worth it.... its not worth holding on cause in the end it will never happen.... i am meant to be alone... just by myself.... with all that has happen... i am forced to change my blog add. close my friendster...