it happening again,,, always when i am back for the holidays.. the first day will be miserable... i wont know wht to do... my mind will be running wild.. thinking of sooooooooo many stuff... now its my weight,,, why cant it go down n stay there... the highest i hv been was 70++ when i was in high school... after leaving university,,, that was in 2008 i was 64... i felt great,...i felt like i was on top of the world.... then i went for my posting... n gain 4 kg... i was 68 in 2009 then i started to lose weight.... was 64 back... the had a heart break... n got to be a 62kg.... i was happy.. at least something good come out of being down... then it when up 1 kg.. down up down... now 13 march 2011 i am 65kg...i think or was it 66kg hmmm i hate it... i feel so fat... my tummy is like bulging... i wish i would get rid of it.... hmmm so am sitting here.. typing away.. while drinking this herbal tea that helps to burn... it has work before,,,, my BMI is 23.3.. i am suppo...