My thoughts…..

it's february the 1st 2014.... last night... or the last 3 weeks of my life has been a roller coaster ride.... ups and downs.... n finally its all over... i want to be angry with someone... but the truth is that it is not being angry that matters.. but what i do after this.... i do want to hurt my self... ( no physically) but emotionally.. mentally... make myself pay for wht i put myself through... if only i stop myself when it started... if only i told myself that it is too good to be true... that it will not happen again... tht i will fall in love.... yes i did it again... i felt in love again... and as usual.. it didnt last... to finally have something that was in my thoughts.. its a magically experience for me.. he made me fall in love so fast.. that i couldnt stop myself and before i know it i just wanted to go with the flow... and again i want to go agaisnt all odds to just be with him... werid wht love can make you do...but yes i was willing... but eve...