My thoughts…..

I normally do this is December, when the new year is around the corner. But this time I decided that I should do it now… I found my 2008 daily diary… the one that I wrote what needs to be done on daily basics…A few thing that I realize I do.. Plan what I have to do when it is already last minute.. I write people’s birthdays.. Have last minute changes cause I don’t start my work fast… Typical of me… As for year 2008.. I realize that it was a very tough year for me… It started off with my last semester in UM.. The last few months of my 6 years – long course. It was coming to an end. It all happened so fast. I barely realized what was going on… with mix feeling.. sad to leave friends.. happy that I am going to work soon… afraid where I am going to be posted… weird period of life… In middle of it (February) was Mahes’ brother’s wedding… a great time but had to end in a bad memory.. something that would be hard to forget… but moving out…. Then my last few weeks of my course were terrible...

coming to sabah has made me realise that respecting each others differences is a simple issue.. here they dont really look at what race they are...but i am not saying that it doesnt exist. it does but subtle.. as for me... it thought me to see my surrounding differently. but old habits die hard. i am prejudicial i cant help it.. as far as i recall i hv not been subject to harsh racial discrimination but i do have my fair share of experience... but i guess i was thought to learn to live with it.. to just accept it n move on.. but here it is different. here u will be able to see different races and even religions in a family... it is very complicating... like a web... but i realize that they see each other for who they are. each member gives n takes. they are able to understand each other without much trouble.... but reflecting on myself... i just cant seem to run away from it... it would be a general stattement to say that those from peninsular are more racist... but i think it is true....

Na maen momin vich maseet aan Na maen vich kufar diyan reet aan Na maen paakaan vich paleet aan Na maen moosa na pharaun. Bulleh! ki jaana maen kaun Na maen andar ved kitaab aan, Na vich bhangaan na sharaab aan Na vich rindaan masat kharaab aan Na vich jaagan na vich saun. Bulleh! ki jaana maen kaun. Na vich shaadi na ghamnaaki Na maen vich paleeti paaki Na maen aabi na maen khaki Na maen aatish na maen paun Bulleh!, ki jaana maen kaun Na maen arabi na lahori Na maen hindi shehar nagauri Na hindu na turak peshawri Na maen rehnda vich nadaun Bulla, ki jaana maen kaun Na maen bheth mazhab da paaya Ne maen aadam havva jaaya Na maen apna naam dharaaya Na vich baitthan na vich bhaun Bulleh , ki jaana maen kaun Avval aakhir aap nu jaana Na koi dooja hor pehchaana Maethon hor na koi siyaana Bulla! ooh khadda hai kaun Bulla, ki jaana maen kaun Not a believer inside the mosque, am I Nor a pagan disciple of false rites Not the pure amongst the impure Neither Moses, nor the Pharoh Bulleh! to me...

from 3/10/09 until 6/10/09 i was missing.... hehehe i was busy lah... attending this camp... from 7 in morning to 11 at night... i choose to return to my house daily cause i just am not the "staying - in - camp " type hehehe overall i would rate the camp 5 out of 10... dont ask why but it just happen to be...some of the pictures that i took heheheh bad layout... to many to arrange hehehhe i just hope i dont hv to go for more camps... i am JUST NOT A CAMP PERSON... this is a monument in keningau... there was like a war.... but i always thought it was a cemetery hehehhe

i tried doing a bookmark.... trying to get in touch with my creative side... but i ruin it... cause now the glue has made it all like bubbles.... hmmmmm

we were in the school's canteen.. there were mangoes... that were plucked from the school's "garden" so to tingle our taste buds... we decided to have a few... but i was amazed with how the teacher peel of the mango's skin... so then i got a demonstration of how it is done...

a beautiful place.. it was fun cause i learnt to tackle the road to tambunan... hehehe lets hope the next i would reach kk safely....