My thoughts…..

its the same every monday morning... i feel guilty... guilty tht during the weekend i didnt do anything.. tht i just let it pass me... then i think about the week ahead i get nerves and feel like hiding... i tell myself this has to change... but still i get stuck in the same circle every time... refocus plz...

so its Saturday.... i got up at 650a,... it felt so amazing to wake up and not have to rush to somewhere. the bed and my blanket felt so good and so comfortable. I felt so Happy. i really wait for the weekends nowadays because i plan to do a lot during the weekend. but as you would guess, i dont get much done.  its like waking up on weekend, i just forget everything i have to do. so its 915 a.m, and all i hv done is have breakfast - nasi lemak - my favourite... p/s how do you set for auto-capital? something i need to Google on...

achievement comes with hard work! does that motto sound right? or should it be achievement comes with smart work? so which one am i doing? it tiring to get up early everyday and repeat the same cycle everyday.... so does this mean i am not working smart? i need to think about this? guess rather than scrolling up and down facebook, i should have read about about this... but i work best early in the morning... my mine is clear and ideas flow... or is it because i hv limited time in the morning so i work fast???? so many aspects to look into.. or am i giving excuses??? arghhh why do i over think? ok got to go back to work...... lets hope today is a productive day!

fyi.. the thesis is done.. and yes i am graduating... beginning of the year i set a few goals for myself to achieved... 1) finish thesis by march 2) lose weight 3) save up atleast rm1000 its October... and only 1 achieved.. but i finished in may.... instead of losing weight i gain 4kg... and i am sure ur thinking about it... yes.. instead of saving tht 1000 i think i spent more... so baciscally the year doesnt look tht promising... so back to the title... yes only 34 days left for me to graduate... and i am going to meet a few ppl during tht time.. and i will be taking pictures... so will i look good in those photos? i really want to... atleast i would have achieved another goal... so now i just need to focus on getting up early at 5 to go walking at the sport complex.. hope tht with the diet control i can atleast lose 5 kg... huhuhu plz plz plz plz  plz plz let me lose weight..!!!!

i am so lost now... so many things pending huhuhu... especial my thesis.. when when will i finish it?

Yes I am fat.. . Reading one of my previous post... from 2011...I am shocked to realise I was 65kg... damn... 65kg... now it has gone up so much... In 3 years I gain so much... wow. How did I let tht happen? How did I let myself get so fat... Am find it hard to digest after reading tht post... tht time I was complaining of being 65kg... if I would hv known tht it would go up so much I would hv done something.... would I? So wht am I doing now? ????

Last night, i slept at 11 then woke up at 6 today morning. That is 7 hours of sleep, yet i still feel sleepy. i had my morning coffee, hoping that the urge to sleep will go away. But, no.. it is still there.  I tried Google-ling to find the answer. well.. the most logical answer is that i didnt complete my sleeping cycle.. which is 8 hours of undisturbed sleep.. but i have heard some ppl with just 6 hours of sleep.. they are energetic as ever.. why cant i be like them.. or another reason is that i am just lazy.. just lazy to force myself to do the list of work tht i have pile up... hmmmm... ok want to try to walk this need to sleep.. hope i dont go and sleep.. heehhee... laters..