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FAKE!

everyone is fake!
everyone is fake!
i know this may seem harsh...but what i am experiencing now..just proves my theory...that everyone is fake...
i don't why !

i just wish that i was a character is a book...a adventurous story...where the main character is me...hehehe cause then i would be involved in every situation...but there must be no parents in that book cause then i get to do what i want hehehe...best thing is i will be able to learn from my mistakes without feeling stupid or useless...

the story must hv magic....n i hv to be able to use magic... just love books that hv magic in it...
the book INKHEART is something like this...where the reader..(a gal i forgot her name)..she has the magic to read out the character from the books she reads..but sometimes there can also be the bad characters...well i dont want to get the bad characters out...

what i would want is to be able to read myself into stories...that would be great...
it would exactly as what S.R.Hayakawa said...
"It is not true that we have only one life to live. If we can read we can live as many lifes and as many more kinds as we wish".

wont this be wonderful!

back to the issue fake...
when i say everyone..i mean i am also fake...
i give myself false hopes....n i act upon this false hopes hoping that one day it will be true...
i guess it will never be....
sometimes i don't who is true...sometimes what the people around me do...just leaves me wondering...where do i stand in their life?... these people might be my family members..my friends...or the people i know....
am i significant in their lives?....but then reality hits me....i am nobody.....sad isn't it?
23years in this world n i am nobody....i dont hv my identity....some may say that i hv one...do i?
then who am i?
if i am then why does being i hurts...
this is all rubbish!
just plain rubbish!

hmmmmmmmmmmmm
enough!
enough!
i just hv to pull myself together n make more false hopes....hopes that i hope will get me through this life of mine....

hv u wonder that just putting words together wont make sense.....well this post...is just that..words that i put together...that wont make much sense to others...but to myself...!
do i leave this with a happy note?....hv i really let out my feelings that hv cause this post to be written/typed?
hehehe
its definitely NO!

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