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instances

Sometimes…
you come across instances in life that you wonder why it happened that way…

Normally those instances are able to hurt you in a way that you are left speechless…

Most of the times you get angry and lash out cause it makes you feel by doing so you are taking control over the instances…

The anger that makes you lash out is normally clouded by weird questions that occur in the vicious mind…

He/she could have…?
Why didn’t he/she…?
I am I that bad…?
Where do I stand in this….?
Do I deserve it…?
Guess no one bothers about me…?
Why me…? Why me...? Why me...?

But after lashing out (sometimes you have gone too far that you feel that you shouldn’t have lash out-----to late for regrets, right?)

you would feel that maybe there is a reason why that instance(s) happened….

Maybe it was meant to happen…
Maybe I am nobody…
I shouldn’t have lashed out .....because it won’t …….
The world is not centered on me…
I made it worse by opening my big fat mouth…
Oh…why can’t I just shut up...?

After having said and done…you just hope to “Let it be…” “Just leave it…” (you also hope that the people involved would let it be) “Move on….” “Grow up”

P/S weird right…? hehehehehe

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