REVIEWING THE YEARS...

I normally do this is December, when the new year is around the corner.
But this time I decided that I should do it now…

I found my 2008 daily diary… the one that I wrote what needs to be done on daily basics…A few thing that I realize I do..

Plan what I have to do when it is already last minute..
I write people’s birthdays..
Have last minute changes cause I don’t start my work fast…
Typical of me…

As for year 2008.. I realize that it was a very tough year for me… It started off with my last semester in UM.. The last few months of my 6 years – long course. It was coming to an end. It all happened so fast. I barely realized what was going on… with mix feeling.. sad to leave friends.. happy that I am going to work soon… afraid where I am going to be posted… weird period of life…

In middle of it (February) was Mahes’ brother’s wedding… a great time but had to end in a bad memory.. something that would be hard to forget… but moving out….

Then my last few weeks of my course were terrible… I still remember thinking when it would end.. with the tension with coursework and friends… it was something that I didn’t think would happen or past.. but it did… thank god…

Once all finished..exams n all… we had our dinner night… the huge bang before we bid farewell… I remember saying to linesh… at our first dinner I remember my dad sending me… but my last dinner I drove there with her… so much has happen in the 6 years…we have grown, matured and blossom heheheh…at that times we were all flushed with weird emotions.. losing friends that we saw basically everyday in the past 6 years was hard…. I still remember those times I spent in MPIK… I will never forget them… those were very special times for me… and will always be.

Knowing that graduation was next..excited me… but the next phase was soon coming… POSTING… that really sucks… I got to know that I was posted to SABAH… weird thing is that I was always the first to check anything online (among my friends) but that time the house computer was sent for reformatting… i was shocked.. I always used to say that I would get Sabah or Sarawak when ever asked where I like to get posted… it was a lesson to me… mom said I asked for it… graduation went by without knowing… on 8/8/08 I got on the plane to Sabah..

The weeks that followed after that went through fast.. so many things happen… I learnt a lot about myself… yet I still don’t know much… a blur period for me…I missed home terribly… cried when ever I thought about home.. I kept on looking for my old friends in my new friends… become a backpack traveler… got my first real pay..I did have my share of ups and down…

Then I return home… was excited.. it was fun seeing familiar faces… I even thought that I had dreamt of sabah… how foolish of me… wanting nothing to change… I guess that’s why I didn’t say goodbye to 2008 I wanted to hold on to it cause I knew by then that more changes are yet to come…. 2008 was like a tornado… it came and everything got turn around n it just ended .. I think I lost myself in that year..

cause I started 2009 without my usual preparation… I just let it happen.. No new year’s resolution.. No aims for the year No thoughts..just wanted to barge into it… I just lost myself… And without me know 2009 is also coming to an end.. just like that..

Being a teacher for a year, staying alone, getting my first loan, being a adult etc, have given me a lot to think off…I took 2009 a step a day… I realize that I don’t really have much of it to remember off.. But sleeping is one of my must to do list this year.. I just can’t get enough of it…I realize that I love that it is raining and i am sleeping.. heheheh I also realize that writing helps to relax me and reading… being home for holidays I am trying to catch up on reading…

So now 2009 is going to end and I hope that I am ready for 2010… so bring it on!!!!!