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afraid

sigh..... sigh...

i guess how many sigh i take...it wont go away...

i am afraid.... i am afraid of this new phase of life that i am going to take ...

i never imagine that i will go through this phase... well i am lying... yes i hv imagine... but i guess i just felt that it will never happen... and now it is happening...

i am excited cause its fun, nice,, new, it just feels right...

but then i starting thiking too much and i hv doubts about it...

is it true... is it right... aint i moving through the phase too fast?
 is there something i should worry about,,,?
or will i be prepared to go through the phase,,,,?

i doubt myslef... i dont want to ruin it,.... cause so many people are looking forward to it... even i am looking forward but i am afraid..... that history repeats itself.... cause i hv enough of being sad for myself.... i dont want to be the cause of any more sorrows.....sigh sigh sigh...

p/s some may know what nonsense i am taking about.... so shhhhhh...

if u dont know well.... it a phase in most women's life  - _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

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