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have i grown...

Have I grown enough..? Have I matured enough to gain the confidence in others..

I am tired… I am tired of people not taking me seriously… for god sake I know what I am doing…. Damn it lah …
Come on lah why do people around me treat me as I am dumb… don’t they look at me n see a person they can trust..

Yes I don’t know many things… I need to learn a lot .. I am learning but give a break I can be learning everything just like that.. it will take time… I am tires of this nonsense…
I realize that the more I tell people my feelings… they always take it wrongly n end of it I will be the one to be blamed.. it will be like I am the one who is creating the problem… ridiculous seriously its ridiculous…

Everyone is thinking that I don’t know how to make decision.. yes I do make decision using my heart more than my brain cause I like it that way it makes me happy… I like buying stuff for my neighbor’s kids cause I know they love it… I want to see their exciting faces when I give them the gift it makes me happy…

But nooooooooo I should do that I should save money… I should be spending them away… hmmmm sign…
Why why why
I know they don’t mean harm when they explain to me stuffs but cant they see that I am just sharing with them what I feel…
Why is it that I am the bad one…. Why why why… why do people think I mean bad when I mean well… why why why..
I am tired of my life…. I am tired… I hv enough of my life….

p/s I got to know some close friends n family members read my blog…. Pls pls pls let this all stay here… I need this to let myself free.. I need to express myself without anyone knowing or anyone giving their comments…

I need to remain sane….

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