i am going back...

hopefully i will be in kl by 10 tonight...

i dont know what to expect this time....  i am tired thats for sure.... i am tired of myself.... my thoughts... they are so strong... it is like i am fighting with my own self.... last night after letting it all go... i felt so tired
 i was so exhausted that i slept when my head touch the pillow...

now i am calm.... but the thoughts are finding their way out... i need to control... to hold my guard.... 

enough is enough... i need to get a grip... i need to live life even in its glumness 

now i need to look forward and still hope... hope that happiness will find its way into my life...