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it happening again,,,

always when i am back for the holidays.. the first day will be miserable... i wont know wht to do...
my mind will be running wild.. thinking of sooooooooo many stuff...

now its my weight,,, why cant it go down n stay there...

the highest i hv been was 70++ when i was in high school...
after leaving university,,, that was in 2008 i was 64... i felt great,...i felt like i was on top of the world....

then i went for my posting... n gain 4 kg... i was 68 in 2009
then i started to lose weight.... was 64 back... the had a heart break... n got to be a 62kg.... i was happy..
at least something good come out of being down...

then it when up 1 kg.. down up down...

now 13 march 2011 i am 65kg...i think or was it 66kg
hmmm i hate it... i feel so fat... my tummy is like bulging... i wish i would get rid of it.... hmmm
so am sitting here.. typing away.. while drinking this herbal tea that helps to burn... it has work before,,,,

my BMI is 23.3.. i am suppose to be in my ideal weight but i feel fat...


maybe i hv fats in the wrong places... lol
i want to be 55kg... or 58kg...
so means i hv to lose 7kgs.... why is it soooooooo hard to just lose 7kgs... arghhhh


i know i should work out... but its my 1st day of my holiday... so i think i will pass...
i just want to get this out of my system n feel good of myself...

as usual i like to write rubbish... but it helps to relax...
so read it for fun... ok?

so happy holidays...!!!!!

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