My thoughts…..

how many days hv i been teaching? i lost count...8 months maybe but i am just tired... is it because my own attitude? cause i see the others doing very well... they can juggle a family and a school... how do they do it? do they hv powers like superman.... do they hv magic like harry potter... do they hv ..i dont know... but how do they do it....? i cant even handle myself... someone asked..is it the place...? no its not...it's fine here... i get the things i need.... what else do you need if in 4 months u gain 4 kg? hehehehe melwin's believe it or not i cant let this get to me cause this is my profession for now... so i hv to like it!...plus i want to like it! when will i change?

my master piece.... my housemate said...."if it was done by 5years old,,,i would give A but 25years old........(laughingly) so rate it...!

wow...my 100th post.... i do write a lot of nonsenses...heheheh someone once told me that i compare a lot... means i compare what i hv..or who i am with whats or who around me... n i think its true... if i encounter anyhthing..i tend to think my it is not the same for me...why i dont hv that?or ..why that doesnt happen to me...? sad isnt it? i was blog hopping... n after a few blogs...i found myself asking..why i dont hv a life like that? u may say that i am pathetic.... but it is true....i did wonder... i guess thats why when i do something for myself i want it to be right.... in other words i am selfish.... true? i guess so.... ok enough of rubbish..off to bed.... good night!

ok i did some editing... enjoy

on the 25th february 2008... i officially own a car...n i owe the bank RM37 ooo heheheheh

teaching is to tiring... even though sometimes it is rewarding... yesterday..i just got fade up with my life.. fade up with hving so much to do..yet so little time fade up of seeing faces of kids that dont get what i am saying...as simple as "collect the papers" just so fade up! so i stayed up until 3 in the morning trying to finish as much work as i could... and then at 4 i just couldn't sleep...i had to force myself to sleep...and the the alram had to ring at 6 in the morning....GET UP GETUP.....SCHOOL TIME but i was surprised today it was relaxing in school the kids understood more..maybe cause the topic of the day was punctuation... they were responding...and i had fun today... i had sweets in my beg... so i asked the year 6 kids do they want sweets..they said yes...but i told them that they hv to ask me in english...this really got their attention...at first a few tried..in broken english...miss i candy like i laughed and gave him a sweet... and the next thing the ot...

on the 11th February 09...i lost my last grandma...my mom's mom the sad thing is that i was not there to bid her farewell.. cause i am far away here in Sabah...i guess that the sad part of being here..i would be missing a lot of family events... my grandma was already old....sound mean of me right? but she was old...i think maybe 90 years old... she was always sick too...but she could still go about her daily affairs... truth to be said...i was never close with her...one of the reason could be that we didnt leave together. She was in Seremban and i was in KL. We would visit her during holidays. Her place would be our "kampung". It was fun going back to Seremban. Meeting all the relatives. her place was huge... the house had about 6 rooms. fun? yes it was... but she did come over to visit sometimes... when we were small... i remember once..my parnets went out and she was baby-sitting us.....she called all of us...4 sibiling...and told us a story... i cant remember the who...