My thoughts…..

I AM IN SABAH! yes..i am sitting in the cc..typing away.. so what has been happening? much actually....i don't know where to start... the 1st day was so unbelievable...i told myself that i won't cry..that i will be strong...but i did cry..cause i didn't know what to do..everything happen so fast...from the airport..to the pejabat in keningau... once i got down from the van..oh i forgot to mention...the journey from kk town to my place is like going to genting...imagine 2 hours of that..yup its nerve racking... once there i saw mei ju crying..n i just couldn't stop myself....i cried too.. my GB - guru besar was nice..he told me not to worry...so after that things moved fast..i stayed with his family..then after few days i had my own house...i am staying with 2 gals..they r also from semenanjung...but there school are different than mine.... for now there is a teacher that helps to pick me up to school n sends me back...i think it has been 2 weeks..i am now sure..i am jus...

yes...i got sabah! I GOT SABAH! I GOT SABAH! i got this news on 23rd July 2008.. when i heard that.... i was like... "i always wanted far..BUT this is soooooooooo far" shit lah shit lah when my mom heard this she started crying..i joined her its really far lah... but that evening we kind of took the fact in..that i was off to SABAH... but after a few days...problems had to arise.... some organization had to messy things up... i am to report to SABAH on the 1st..n MY GRADUATION IS ON THE 6TH.... so how am i going to go for MY GRADUATION! can u believe it...? there are chances that i cant go! how devastating is that! 6 years of studying and there is no grand celebration... b4 this i would sit with friends and imagine how the day would be... will one of us drop? what will our parents be doing? who is bring the camera? where will be taking the shots? and now i cant go! damn it! after crying...i hvnt been eating properly a few days..(i think i lost weight....hehehehe...)i hv sleep...

on this date..i was lucky to be able to spend my time with these people... who they are....? well... they are my close friends from secondary school..n some are even from my primary school... i had spend many of my happy n sad moments with them... i had also quarrel with them...heheheh no one is perfect right... but it was great to meet them... the balloon teddy bear was a gift from them to me as i am to be posted..soon..hehehe where? in the next post... p/s the last shot..fadilah n jamie...the culprits who thought me 18sx stuffs... View Photo Slideshow Make a Free Flash Slideshow

i found this from here Dear Future Me, remember sun , remember grass, take a deep breath and relax, forgive, take care, live longer, and smile (written Fri Apr 13, 2007, to be delivered Tue Apr 13, 2027) p/s i think u can forgive,,,but forgetting is hard...

Sometimes… you come across instances in life that you wonder why it happened that way… Normally those instances are able to hurt you in a way that you are left speechless… Most of the times you get angry and lash out cause it makes you feel by doing so you are taking control over the instances… The anger that makes you lash out is normally clouded by weird questions that occur in the vicious mind… He/she could have…? Why didn’t he/she…? I am I that bad…? Where do I stand in this….? Do I deserve it…? Guess no one bothers about me…? Why me…? Why me...? Why me...? But after lashing out (sometimes you have gone too far that you feel that you shouldn’t have lash out-----to late for regrets, right?) you would feel that maybe there is a reason why that instance(s) happened…. Maybe it was meant to happen… Maybe I am nobody… I shouldn’t have lashed out .....because it won’t ……. The world is not centered on me… I made it worse by opening my big fat mouth… Oh…why can’...

i found this picture of mine....it was during kindergarten... i remember just a glimpse of that time... it was the graduation picture... when taking this picture... the sun was on my face...i was trying my best to open my eyes and now....on the 6th of August i am graduating again.... this time from uni....am on the way of being a teacher----a primary school teacher... unbelievable...i don't think at that moment i would haven't thought about being a teacher... though, my mom once told me that in my primary years i used to teach the pillows at home.... i guess i was mad from those time itself....hehehe but back to the current graduation... i wonder how would that day be like...? my family will be there..so it will be chaotic... i would be trying to enjoy myself with my friends.... so i will be torn between them both... for sure i will be crying...cause the past 6 years i have gain so many memories that every time i think back i have something new to think of....so i am sure tears...

yes...! i got my computer back.....finally it was getting boring without it... i don't know how i am going to survive in a few months time..cause when i am posted(as a teacher).. don't know where that's... i wont hv a computer ... better start saving so that i can buy my own....